Im Giving Up.

Im Giving Up, Not on my life,Not on my future, Im giving up my "self". Now Let me explain, I know that these words bring to mind portraits of defeat, but defeat isn't really what I mean more like submissive reality, Ive come to a realization. Nothing I want to do or make happen for myself could ever make me happy... In fact alot of the things I personally would want (Im sure) If I were to receive them as a result of my own actions would only be to my detriment. I mean up to this point anything Ive done for myself,or to please others only leaves me feeling empty and uninspired. Self gratification is the disease on which this world thrives,and (If were really being honest) We have all struggled with Christian or no. Im tired of my desires getting in the way of my faith and walk with God. Faith requires trust ,and trust requires complete dependence on God and His perfect will. Meaning my "perfect will" gets fed to the dogs. Ive come to the realization that nothing I do at my best could ever be worth to what God could do at His. and If He is in me I want to relinquish all I am to His spirits leading. No not as if I am some controlled robot or slave. But rather as a Father leads His daughter safely by the hand, down a darkened alley way, one step in front of her to keep her out of harms way. He quietly,gently leads us to where we belong where things will be best for us. We never have to doubt His purpose or intentions. His reasoning for things, because somehow we know that just like that Father he only has our best interests at heart. Although we may experience pain in some places it is nothing compared to the pain that we might feel if we were alone. God never promised to make our journey painless, But He did promise us the peace in His presence,the calm in the storm,and the ever present knowledge that He would be with us to the very end. So I am giving up... to Him and I hope that you all will do the same, because nobody knows me better then my father not even me. That's Love.

(9 But ye are not in the flesh, but in the Spirit, if so be that the Spirit of God dwell in you. Now if any man have not the Spirit of Christ, he is none of his...14 For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God.15 For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.)

(Romans 8:9,14-15)

(38 For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.)

(Romans 8:38-39)